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LELOUCH VI BRITANNIA ⬤ CODE GEASS
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moonblessing ⬤ Iris

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[endgamed]

Now? I'm not sure I'm prepared.

I'm not sure which of my problems I should state first.

[leekspins]

We could start with your moonblessing, if you like. You said you had trouble controlling it?

Is there someone you like now because of that?

[endgamed]

No. I've actually been keeping to myself.

I've gotten swan-like traits, and some of them involve my wing flapping for no reason.

[ That's what he meant!! ]

[leekspins]

[...Ohhhhh. Ohhhhh that's what he meant. Well at least it's text, so no one can see her embarrassed grin.]

That's strange. I wonder why? Maybe to keep circulation flowing?

Why did you keep to yourself? Is it really that bad?

[endgamed]

I can't really offer any theories, myself. I'm able to control it better now, but it still flaps on its own every now and then.

I'm also not feeling the dire need to be with others, unliked Iris Moonblessed. You know, in a more intimate way. I suppose I'm lucky right now. I can mostly retain the qualities that make me me.

[leekspins]

[Maybe there's a hidden longing to fly...]

That's good! In that case, you probably won't have to worry about anything too severe in the future. Do you have someone you can rely on in the meantime?

[endgamed]

For Chroma? Not in an intimate way, no. I don't think I could ever ask that of anybody.

But I know of someone who would be willing to hold my hand or hug me, at least. And there's someone I met recently who's also very helpful with non-intimate ways of moonlacing.

[leekspins]

That sounds great!

Sorry, I feel like I'm probing instead of listening. It seems like your moonblessing isn't troubling you too much right now. Is there something else instead?

[endgamed]

That's alright. I'm honestly not sure where to begin.

I'm not one to usually tell anybody my problems.

[leekspins]

It's okay if you're not ready yet. I tend to keep things to myself, too.

But it's comforting to know there's someone I could talk to, if I needed it. So I'm grateful.

So, do you dislike intimacy?

[endgamed]

I don't dislike it. It's just something I've never considered before.

I suppose you could say I had other priorities in life.

[leekspins]

What kinds of priorities?

[endgamed]

Taking care of family. I was the only one who could cook and clean and do other chores.

[leekspins]

That was kind of you. And you were still in school too, right? I suppose there wouldn't be much time for dating.

[endgamed]

Have you ever dated anybody before?

[leekspins]

Not until I came here. Kind of pathetic, isn't it?

[endgamed]

You just called me pathetic.

[leekspins]

You too? Really?

Sorry, by the way! It wasn't intentional!

At least you'll probably do it for the right reasons. I started dating because I found out the person I was in love with didn't seem to prefer girls. So I decided I had to act and change my feelings, so I wouldn't burden him with a one-sided love.

[endgamed]

[ Well, that's a tricky situation to be in. This is why you should never love anybody anymore, Orihime. ]

How is that working out for you now? Have you moved on?

[leekspins]

Not really. Falling in love with someone else is hard. And I'm a little mad at myself for having selfish motives, since it's not fair to my dates.

[endgamed]

Matters of the heart always take a lot of time. Years may not be able to make you move on, but you'll need to do something about it or else you'll be stuck in the past forever.

[leekspins]

That's true. I'll keep trying. I do like spending time with the friends I get to go out with.

What would you do?

[endgamed]

The only person I've fallen in love with is dead.

That's why being intimate now is not a priority.

[leekspins]

That's awful. I'm so sorry. And I was insensitive about it all this time.

How long ago did it happen?

[endgamed]

It's not a big deal. You didn't know, did you?

I'd prefer not to say.